Tuesday 28 February 2012

Regrets

I know you shouldn't have regrets in life, but I do.

One that has been bothering me for the last year relates to my dream job and just how I messed up my opportunity.

I have always liked outdoor activities and working with kids, so I approached the local activity centre (I take my Guides there regularly), and asked if they need anyone and if they would give me a chance.  They said yes - hooray!  But the centre didn't open for another couple of months and to begin with it would be unpaid.  But I needed money coming in so in that time I got my part time job.  Then the time passed and because I was now working I was not available for the activity centre and somehow my opportunity somehow disappeared, and I was too much of a wus to pursue it.

It almost makes me feel sick to think of the opportunities I have thrown away.  Sometimes it is hard to weigh up the need to earn money to support my family and the desire to go for your dream job.

I guess it is easier to do what you don't want to do, then it doesn't matter if you fail, than to pursue what you do, and face the possibility of failure at that.  How much of a coward am I?

So the question is, what do I do?  Do I explain, ask for another chance, or not try and always have this sinking feeling in the bottom of my stomach that I have missed out on something wonderful.



4 comments:

  1. Aww, that sounds sad to have this regret. If it was me and it was something that kept cropping up as a regret, i would pluck up the courage and speak to them, see if there is an opportunity to maybe do some voluntary work with them. I would go with it because you don't really have anything to lose. This is coming from someone who doesn't usually confront things! However if its bothering me or i feel i'm missing out then i give it a bash even if it means getting rejected. Best of luck with whatever you decide.

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  2. I agree with Dannie. Give it a go, what have you got to lose.

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  3. Go for it! They can only say No, but they could also say YES! Good Luck!

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  4. if you feel the times right, go for it but i believe everything happens for a reason so try not to beat yourself up about the past, you never know if you had of gone in that direction then maybe it wouldnt have worked or you'd have got too caught up in it and not had enough quality family time over the years or something, thats the way i see it anyway :)

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